Tell Me Purple

Size: 00 (US)
Age: 19
Highest Weight: 122 ish lbs
Lowest Weight: 96 lbs
Goal Weight: 84 lbs

Favorite Diet Food?
Cream of Celery Soup, Fat Free Yogurt, Coffee,Skinny Water

Favorite Binge Food?
Pizza, Bagels, Cereal, Cookies, Baked goods

Favorite Exercise?
Jumping Jacks, Treadmill, Stair-stepper,

Thinspo?
Versace models, Real girls I see while I am out, especially in class.

What Makes You Slip Up?
When I am at work an think about the cookies and have to make them, The Kitchen, being bymyself when I am craving.
What Makes You Strong?
Surprisingly enough, cooking for others, my scale, seeing the pictures of myself at my highest.
When Did It Start?
It really really started March 2010. But slowly festered a few months before that.

Does Anyone Know?
My best friend, J. I think my ex girlfriend suspects. And of course all my readers!

Do You Want Help?
I don't need help. 'Help' will make me fat.

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
300.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
At first, sometimes, I like what I see, but upon closer examination, I see fat. I see where there should be more space, less fat. More concave.

Are You In A Relationship?
No. And I think I like it better that way.

Is It For Attention?
No... No one even knew or suspected until I came back for break from college. J asked me and I didn't deny it... In a way it was almost relief.
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
Thin. But I can be thinner. I know it.

Are You Depressed?
I wish I wasn't

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
I don't want to die. Ever.

Ever Been To A Psychologist?
8th grade to my senior year in High School. She never knew about my eating. We grew to friends rather than anything else. I only told her the happy things the last year and a half.

Are You On Any Medication?
No. Well, for my wisdom teeth, but that's temporary :)

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[x] ednos
[tendancy] bulimic
[x] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[x] thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[x] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan

PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[ ] have tried to stop me

I WISH -
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[ ] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[x] I could disappear

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[ ] shaking
[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -
[ ] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[ ] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[x] fat people

I NEED -
[ ] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[ ] more friends
[ ] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[ ] a gym membership
[ ] to lose 50 lbs
[] to lose 30 lbs
[2x] to lose 10 lbs