UP...FAIL

The last week has been really weird for me... I cannot seem to control myself. All I want is junkfood. Just the thouhgt of eating something else does not even occur to me. But it all will end tomorrow. Today, I finally graduated officially. Off to college soon xD But seriously, tomorrow, I will begin truly cutting out any and all junkfood. And if I don't like it, well, too damn bad. I have a lot of fat-free yogurt, milk, veggies, fruits, and (once a week only, tops, Boca).

I haven't weighed myself in more than a few days. The last time I checked (Monday) i was all the way back up to 100.0 lbs. HORRIBLE.

I recently found a gym that is pretty cheap. Only 20 bucks a month. But I have doubts about it. We shall see. I am going to continue running in the mornings before showering.

Tomorrow:
Coffee w/truvia, fat free skinny creamer
Fat-Free Yogurt
One Apple
Sobe 0 cal green tea
Water
More cofee

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A visual For Ya

Here is a picture I took when I weighed about 103... I am now down to 97, but i don't really feel like I've lost any weight... I felt it was time to show you guys how nasty I am. I mean, Especially my hips and ass. That is my least favourite part of my body. They are just so fucking huge and nasty. Running up the stairs makes me feel like shit... But Im practically too tired to keep typing and to actually make sense, so I will continue this lovrly post latre.

The most common error made in matters of appearance is the belief that one should disdain the superficial and let the true beauty of one's soul shine through. If there are places on your body where this is a possibility, you are not attractive--you are leaking. - Fran Lebowitz

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ABC

Hey, today was absolutely horrible. There is no really other way to put ot other than FUCK ME. I am weakweakweak. Granted I am down to my weight goal of 97, that is not what really counts. My mom bought oreos the other day after I specifically asked her not to. And she even put them in my room. Needless to say I did not resist and gave in. I was doing so well too. So, tomorrow, I am going to just drink coffee and water. And around 4, right before I go to work, I will have a fat free yogurt.


15 June

Breakfast: 730a
5 oz. Soymilk
BLueberry muffin
Lunch: 330p
Boca Sppicy Chik'n Patty w/ketchup
Sm. White Hamburger Bun
Dinner: 8p
1.5 in sub (1 tbs honey mustard and 1 tb. yellow mustard, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, red pepper, black pepper)
cookie...




Plan For 16 June

Breakfast: 930a
Coffee w/ cream and sugar

Take max for VERY LONG walk. Approx. 1-hour. Maybe go to the park or something?
If needed, have another cup of coffee around 2.

Lunch: 400p
Fat Free Yogurt
Water
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On another note, as of today, I am done with high school. I have to go to my graduation still, but today was the last time I had to go in for some form of educational purposes! It hasn't quite hit me yet, but the next time I will be going back to school, I will be going to college. Wow.

Also, beginning Thursday, I am going to start the ABC Diet because I am out of school now. I'll kepp you guys(whoever that may be xD) updated

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Update

This morning I was down to 99.8! I have lately been having a glass of soymilk in the morning (can't ahve coffee :hmph:) about a cup or applesauce and water around lunch time, and about a cup of squash with a little brown sugar after i get home from work around ten thirty.

Another good point... I had to wear my old work pants today that I used to wear a few months ago, and they are HUGE on me. I was constantly pulling them up during work, because I couldn't get a belt from anyone at work and those were the only pants I had. Haha.

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Niice Fasting Plan

I got my tongue pierced today aroung noon. I didn't eat anyhting beforehand and couldn't eat anything afterwards of course. It is now eleven at night and I've had one small glass of chocolate silk. :) So proud of myself. I'll post my weight tomorrow.

Does anyone have any measuring tips I could use? I'm going to start measuring myself as well...